more jay, less war.

I really like this girl.

2012-01-15T02:13:00.002-05:00

I have the hugest crush on this woman and I am not sure exactly how I feel about that just yet. Given the circumstances, it's not favorable; but based on pure feeling, it feels pretty good. My head is in a constant loop. Either way, I have to figure out what I want to do in this situation. I do not want to make it an awkward friendship, though. That's why I try to keep certain things to myself. Even when I say stuff, I usually bring it up in a jocular tone. I value her as a person and I don't want to lose that connection.

Hell, I'm also not trying to lose my cool. Not cool in a sense of staying calm. I mean that thing that makes me unique. My cool. I am a very cool dude. I know this and use it to my advantage more times than none. I force people to communicate with me. I don't do much calling or texting. It's always about replying. That's how I've learned to keep relationships in my control. However, it's a bit different with her. I want to send her a good morning text. Most of the time I don't. I want to give her a random call in her day just to see how she is. I've only done that once. That once is more than I've ever done with anyone else, though. She's deserving.

The best part about her is that I can't read her. I'm usually pretty good at telling how someone feels and where their head is when it comes to a situation involving me. I may play dumb at times, but I know. I'm unable to clearly understand where she is and I don't try to. It's not my place to. If I can figure it out, I like to control it. I don't want to do anything of my old self. I told her that I want to step outside of myself and that's what I'm going to do.

To get something you've never had, you have to do something you've never done.

I haven't forgotten about you.

2011-09-01T05:37:00.001-04:00

I'm up, just a few hours before I need to be. I hate that. Today is going to be a long ass shift and I'm wide awake. I should be sleep so I can be prepared for my day. However, I'm just up with no place to go. Rather, no one to speak to. So, why not make use of my alone time and just write it all down while I actually feel like talking? It's such an arduous task to keep up with blogging how I used to. This is something that I completely loved to do. It became a chore. I started writing for someone else other than me. I began to resent it. How is that even possible? I don't know.

Good news! My EP will be released this Sunday! Here's the artwork for you to check out. I've also released a song. It's probably playing as the main song on my blog. Who knows? I haven't decided whether I want to do that or not. Actually, why not? Who cares, right? I just don't want to seem tacky. Anyway, the EP came out great. I've gotten some pretty good reviews from everyone who has heard it thus far. Nothing really bad being said. On the flip-side, these are all friends who are probably trying to spare my feelings. We'll see how that goes on Sunday when the damned thing drops.

Today has been a really boring, thoughtful. I'm trying not to get too deep into what's in my head because it's not really worth it. Some shit is just best left unsaid. I do know that I'm starting to hate thinking about the same thing everyday. It's so repetitive and time consuming. Seriously, this is the first thought I have in the morning and almost always the last thought I have at night. You know this shit is fuckin' ridiculous.

I'm guessing that's it for now. I thought that blogging would shut my mind off, but it hasn't. Maybe because I've neglected to open up how I really wanted to. It's a process. I'll tell you this: What I'm thinking about is nothing really bad. So, don't worry about if I'm like pseudo-suicidal or anything like that. I'm in a good place mentally. I just don't like the specific spot that my mind is stuck in. I'll have to find a way to get past where I'm at inside myself. The scariest part is that my mind and heart are in the same place. I'm just not too big of a fan of it myself. Does that make sense? It shouldn't, but it does to me.

She makes me want to walk on water.

2011-08-27T11:46:00.002-04:00

Yesterday was extremely productive. I actually sat down and wrote an EP that I will be releasing next Sunday. This is not the one that I spoke about in my last post. When I set down to write after I made that post, I just felt differently. I'm going to start recording today and mixing tomorrow. This is going to be pretty awesome. I can't let myself get discouraged. I gotta keep pushing from there. I easily sit down in the mixing process and feel like my music isn't good enough.

Someone recently asked me how does it feel to listen to my music knowing that I did everything: Wrote, recorded, mixed, masted, and sometimes even produced. I told her that it was one of the most nerve-wracking things I can ever experience. I never know if it's going to sound hot when I sit down and listen to it. It usually takes a few listens and then someone going crazy in the background over the track to make me realize how dope it is. I think everything gets lost in the mixing process. The delivery of my records are fine. The mixing is what's killing me because I don't have all of the equipment that I need. The gear doesn't make the engineer, but the gear does limit the engineer. For starters, I need a better mic and to rebuild my vocal booth.

"The Vacation" is the title for this EP. It was actually conceptualized sometime last summer as a pre-EP to my project "Welcome Home, Mr. Adams" but that flopped. Most of my projects flop because I don't have any constant producers who grind the way I do, aside from Mic G. Him and I have fallen out, to an extent, so I'm really out here by myself when it comes to production. I need to find some versatile producers who can handle the load of at least a beat a week. They don't need to be mixed, because I mix everything in Pro Tools myself. With a record a week, I can put out a full length project every few months and keep my name buzzing, as well as the producers names buzzing. It's hard because everyone has lives. This was so much easier when we were younger.

While I stare at you.

2011-08-26T11:19:00.004-04:00

Yesterday was pretty decent. I'm just not fond of my job right now. I mean, I love working there, but I have dreams. I never want to get complacent. It's really important that I keep in mind why I have that job and not allow myself to get stuck in a position where I'm unable to follow my dreams. With that said: I've officially started recording "No Sleep For The Gifted." However, I think I'm going to rerecord everything next week when I go buy a new mic. I've been looking at a few. I'll continue looking next Friday when I get my paycheck. I think it's going to suck, though. I've only worked five days in the past two weeks, due to my Grandmother's passing.

After my studio session last night, I spent the night in a deep thought. That can be annoying at times. I used to blog when I got in those moods, but over the past few years it became a lesser need to blog. I want to get back into that, though. However, I did talk about how I was feeling with someone. Not exactly, but to an extent. We talked about the stars and how small they make me feel. It's funny that I've always been told that I have my heads in the clouds. That's not true. My head is beyond that. I use the stars as a pillow. If there is a clear night, I'm probably looking upward and admiring how far they are and how small I actually am. It's a nice feeling, being that I am a giant amongst everyone in my life. I'm 6'8" if you don't know.

Have you ever been in a room and everyone notices you but who you want to notice you? I'm sure you have. We all have. It seems like my phone is the perfect example of that. Throughout the day, my phone receives a billion texts, phone calls, and other shit, but it's rarely who I actually want to talk to. Well, let's just say more than often, it's someone that I don't want to hear from, rather than the only person I would love to hear from. Maybe we're just spoiled. I have no idea where this is going anymore. I had a central thought when I started this paragraph. Now I'm completely lost in my own thought. That happens often. If you're reading this post on August 26th, 2011 the first song should be a "Crave You." Listen to it. That's what I mean.

I won't keep you any longer. Thanks for reading.

Murder, murder, murder she wrote.

2011-08-25T01:48:00.000-04:00

I really like this watch. It's from Meister's 2011 Fall/Winter collection. I think it's dope. I don't own a gold watch, but I'd love to very soon. It seems like a quintessential piece in any man's wardrobe. You know what I mean? The rich-guy gold watch. I think they seem very debonaire. This is coming from a guy that used to like big, icy watches. I'm so impressed with my sense of style now. It has changed so much over these years. The things I'm into are so far beyond what I used to like. Honestly, I haven't worn a pair of dunks in years.

Today was a pretty good day for what it was. I think the best part of my day was the storm. It looked amazing. I saw a bag of empty soda bottles fly 30 feet in the air. That was byfar the most interesting thing. Well, second most interesting thing if you include my morning car ride. That was pretty dope, but I'm going to refrain from speaking about stuff like that right now. Let's focus on me. Anyway, the bag of bottles: Awesome. I've never seen anything like it. I'm pretty sure they landed where they needed to when it was all said and done. I hope they landed at the feet of someone who could have used them. It's hard out here, man.

Oh, I recorded a new song today. How could I forget? I actually didn't want to, but someone asked me to do it. I owed her a song since the last song she asked for kind of fell through. You know what? I'm happy that I did because I really like the song. It came out pretty nice. A few of my friends told me that I should have done it as well. Like usual, I didn't listen. It took an outside opinion to really get me excited about the record. I think I was more excited about her hearing the song, more than actually doing it. I love people's reactions to my music. It feels like a job well done.

I have a lot of stuff on my mind that I would love to blog about, but I'm just not ready to get into that stuff yet. I found myself slipping into my old journal writing days in the post that I wrote this morning. That was a bit too revealing for the person I am now. Before, stuff like that didn't matter. Now, I'm a bit more introverted. I don't like sharing my feelings with anyone. Hell, not even myself. Maybe if I continue to blog and get back into the swing of things, stuff will come out more naturally. We'll see. I'm hoping so, though. I really miss blogger.

If liking you is wrong...

2011-08-24T07:24:00.001-04:00

I've been single for a few months now, but my heart had a longing to be free for much longer. I didn't realize it until it actually was free how much of a burden was lifted from me. Hell, if only this could have happened sooner. I won't rush God, though. I am working on his timetable. I guess it couldn't have happened at a more perfect time, according to him. I just have to accept that as a blessing and continue to move forward.

I truly missed the feeling of liking someone. Not loving them, but just liking them enough to have them invade your thoughts once-in-a-while. It's such a great feeling. I think I'm there. This woman is unique; however, I don't feel as if I am within my rights to pursue anything. You see, I'm not supposed to like her. I just can't help it. I've had the smallest crush on her for the past year. Before, I made myself believe it was "the grass is greener"-syndrome. I was in a shitty relationship and she seemed as perfect as she could be, flaws and all. Now that I am out of that relationship, I can see that my feelings toward her then were not inaccurate They just shouldn't be there at all, given the circumstance. You cannot help who you feel for, though. It'd be nice to, though. Wouldn't it?

I went out with her yesterday and I had the most honest-fun that I've had in a while. She's an awesome person to be around, just as I remembered. In the days leading up to us going out, I tried to convince myself that I shouldn't. Hell, I've had an easier time squeezing my foot into a shoe that was two sizes too small. While I do wish that our circumstance was a bit different because it would allow for me to at least let it be known that I like her, I do not regret anything. It would be naive to ignore it, but childish to dwell on it. I just have to convince myself that the risk is worth the potential gain. For all I know, she probably does not (and should not) feel the same. Hey, well if she does, or ends up feeling this way down the road, then that's a different story.

When it's all said and done, I just hope she knows that my intentions are pure. I am not trying to make her like me or anything like that. I don't want our time together to be awkward. She has to know that my friendship with her is more important than any romantic feeling that I may have. Liking her could change the whole dynamic of our friendship and I am comfortable with it just as it is. I mean, of course, it'd be nice to have something more, but I am not going to push the issue. That seems a bit disrespectful to her, in my opinion. That is if she doesn't want anything more herself. Which I'm 85% sure of. The other 15% is just my confidence saying that I can have anyone I want... Deal with it.

Now is it strange that I wrote this as she sleeps just a few feet away from me? Don't get any ideas. She accidentally stayed the night. We both fell asleep after a bottle of Moet between the both of us. I think she's just really fond of that damned beanbag chair that I have in my room, as is everyone else. I was a little buzzed, what's her excuse? The beanbag was too comfortable? LOL! Knowing her, that's probably it.

I'm going to start blogging here more.

2010-08-16T00:55:00.001-04:00

I'm really into this look here. I think I'd pull that outfit off well. Very well, actually. The shoes are dope. I wish I knew what they were. I actually had a pair of Timbs like that before. I'm going to make an educated guess and say those aren't Timbs. Everything about this look says classic. I believe he can look back at this photo and know that he wasn't one of these trendy dudes. That's amazing. I can't stand seeing trendy outfits. Like thats scarves a few years ago. They're so played out now. How long did they stay? Oh yea, that's right: Trends die fast.

I wonder what kind of watch is that? I recently lost my watch. I have no idea where it's at, but I know it could be in one of two places. Unfortunately, both of those places are very broad. The last time I lost a key in one of those places. Guess what? I never found it. I'm betting that I won't find my watch. My wrist feels naked without it. I always feel like I look flier with it. It just completes my whole look with everything. When I want to get sexy, I put that watch on. Now I'm sad. Who wants to buy me a new watch? It has to be grown up, though. Audemars Piguet is a nice place to start.

An ever evolving sense of style.

2010-08-09T18:05:00.001-04:00

All I can think about is Kanye's line "Damn, them new loafers hurt my pockets." Seriously, I'd love a pair of these A.P.C. tassle loafers. I find that my style is maturing a bit. I wouldn't have been interested in these a few years ago. I was only interested in sneakers, fitted caps, and a bit of jewelry. I've always considered myself fashionable; but I can now say that and really understand what it means. I had only been into one genre of clothing. It's taken me up until now to understand that there are different genres in fashion. Most importantly, I don't have to fit into one. Now comes to process of making it all work for me.

I've also found myself into wallets these days. Trust me, I don't think anyone would have said that I've always been the type to carry one. No, I relied solely on rubberbands. They held my money and whatever cards that I needed to hold. Not now. I love my Polo by Ralph Lauren passcase wallet. I'm looking into collecting all kinds of wallets. I think the style of wallet says a lot about a man's personality. It's a hidden form of expression. Women have bags, I'll have my wallets. I'm kind of into the graphite Louis Vuitton damier print wallet. Well, it's more than kind of. I'd love to have that as the second wallet in my "collection." It's definitely my style. Besides, my Polo one needs company; his nickname's Damier.

I couldn't see myself where I am today. I pledged that I would never get rid of my sneakers only lifestyle. Now, I'm looking forward to buying a new suit. I want a handkerchief, too. Let's not forget a tie clip. I really want to be as smooth and dapper as I can be. I enjoy looking good. I'd seriously love to study fashion, but I'm far too into what I like to get into other things. That's my nice way of saying some of the stuff I see is bullshit and I don't want to know about it. Whose idea was it to put Lady Gaga on a best-dressed list? Fashion is interpretive though, right?

Who cares about what time it is anyway?

2010-03-23T12:02:00.001-04:00

I had a sudden revelation a few hours ago: No one reads my blog anymore. The only reason that I used to try to post at a certain time is because I had hundreds of hits everyday. I wanted people to know when to expect a post so they can take their time to visit me. "Jay usually posts at night so I'll check before I go to sleep." You know? That was the whole purpose of that. It's just not the same anymore. I'm not writing for a bunch of readers right now. My main focus is me; therefore, I'm going to post whenever I feel like it. Don't worry, I'll still post once a day. I like seeing the consistency in the dates. Is that weird? It's all about the aesthetics, man!

Speaking of consistency: This post is going to knock off all of the old posts from the front page! I have no idea why I'm so excited about that. There is going to be a whole front page of just my new writings. Isn't that dope? Okay, I'm nerdy. So what? I run Blogger. What? Okay. Seriously, this is turning into somewhat of a 365 project, right? I wonder if I have to focus to write a post every single day. I'm claiming it right now. I want to make this a 365 project from the time I came back to Blogger. I don't even believe in myself enough to do that! I'm kidding. I'm not making this a 365. Hell, all of my blogs are a look back into my life. Why do I need to label it? I'm fine with what it is.

Guess what? I didn't post on Tumblr yesterday. The only blog that received a post from me is this one. Isn't that grand? You don't have to be so jealous anymore. Well, I'm going to go write there as soon as I finish up here. I have a few things on my mind that I need an audience for. I like the instant feedback a lot. Sometimes I write for me and sometimes I write so that people can read it. I don't think that's vain of me. I'm pretty well rounded with the balance. Don't you agree?

I have blogging OCD. Have you noticed that all of my posts have to be four paragraphs long? I know that can be a bit strenuous on my readers. I should just make a small post that you can read and move on with your lives. Nope, I always take a few minutes of your time. I don't know, it's just for the look I guess. Sometimes I don't even know that it's four paragraphs. I don't stop writing until I decide that I'm finished. I never have anything in mind with a starting and stopping point. Writing is like art to me: It's never really finished until it is. I can always go back and add more. I do it all the time with short stories. Like now. I'm deciding that I'm finished no matter how abrupt it may seem.

The United States of Jay.

2010-03-22T23:17:00.002-04:00

I know, this is super late. I was kind of busy today, just kind of. There isn't really much to write about my day, though. I've gotten a lot more set into writing to start my day off as opposed to ending it. Trust me, I'll have another post in the morning. This is just a quick goodnight, I guess. I'm really upset that I missed my early morning post. Well, I'm not. There's always another opportunity to get back on track. I'd be upset with myself if I stop writing in the mornings all together. Everyone knows that I take a hiatus from blogging. Let's not make it another one so soon. Hell, I just came back to this blog.

Have I ever openly talked about the show Pawn Stars? I've been watching it for a while now. Since the first season, actually. To be completely honest with you: I dislike the people on this show and they make me dislike all pawn shop workers and owners. I don't like them because they're really sleazy. I mean, look at them, don't they look like greasy salesmen? I'm kidding, kind of. No, really, someone will come in with a valuable item that was just appraised at $2700. Do you know what they offer after hearing how much the thing is worth? Someone will say something like, "I'll give ya $500 for it." Then they'll continue to argue with the person who's trying to sell them the item, telling them that they're not going to get what it's worth and they might as well just sell it for what he's offering. I know that it's a business and they're trying to buy things at the absolute cheapest to sell it for the highest, but come on! Sadly, if I were in their shoes I'd probably be sleazier. "Hey, I'll give ya $23 for it." It's a really great show, though. I love how knowledgeable Rick is about everything that comes in the store. I seriously learn something every time I watch it.

I'm about to get ready for bed. It's about time that I start to wind down from today and just rest. Television, conversation, and fruit should do the job. Yes, I love eating fruit as a midnight snack; although I'd much rather have candy. Chocolate, anyone? I'm looking for candy right now, man. I need some. It's crazy that I have such a sweet tooth. I feel for Lamar Odom and his candy addiction. I'd be just like him, man. It's crazy how much negative attention he got for that. Damn, can't a man just like candy? The whole backlash was absurd if you ask me. Crucifying a man over sweets. What is the world coming to?

The United States of Tara came back tonight. I'm really excited for that. Wow! In going to the official Tara website, I found out that one of the characters from the show has a Tumblelog! That's really freaking dope. Alice is an automatic follow. I'm actually cheesing about that. How lame am I? Anyway, I'm anxious to watch the first episode of the new season tomorrow.

It's been a long time.

2010-03-17T13:16:00.001-04:00

I'm pretty sad that I left this blog here to rot away. I don't know what I was thinking. I worked really hard on this layout and I gave my all to make a positive comeback. The sad part about every post is that it's me trying something different. Something that I'm really not. Dude, I'm a personal blogger. I write about my experiences and how I'm feeling; therefore, trying to show you gadgets and fashion isn't really my forte. Visit Kanye's blog for some shit like that. I'd rather stay true to myself. The overly emotional, overly opinionated, hell of a good writer Jay. I promise from here-on-out that's all you'll get from me. The hard part will be deciding what goes here and what goes on my other blog.

One of the main reasons I stopped blogging here is because of a situation about my layout. That took all of the love out of this page. Seriously, I gave it up. Like, a layout? Come on, can we get over that? It's cool. We back to being friends, it's over. I'm back to being Hova. Well, not exactly. That was a lyric, by the way. I do that sometimes. Really, though. I'm going to enjoy writing here and enjoy my dope layout. Fuck what everyone else is talking about. I don't have many readers here, though. My other blog has the whole world's eyes in it's possession. What can I do to set this one apart from the other? Any suggestions? Don't give me nothing wack, either.

I have plans for today. Nothing that's really productive, besides going to this place to fill out an application. I need a job. I'm also meeting with the manager there. This should be interesting. They see me and hate to hire me. I sound better on paper than I actually am. It's not like I look like a thug or anything. I'm just freakishly large, standing at an impressive 6 feet and 8 inches. I think people are intimidated. Hell, that's probably why my last job didn't put me on the schedule as much. Everyone there was a small, petite, white woman. Not that I have anything against them, but the big black guy just doesn't fit in. They continued to hire little white women. Guess what? I'm really pulling the race card.

I'm debating on if I want to remove the music from my blog or not. I've kind of outgrown the concept. I do like the soundtrack, though. Never mind, I'll keep it. If you hate it then you can suck my testicles. Not literally, though. That's just a figure of speech for expressing a strong disapproval of something. I hope that clarifies things. I'm not really some pervert who likes random people to suck on his testicles. That'd be disgusting, wouldn't it? Don't mind me. I'm really sick. Someone needs to come take care of me, asap.

I wonder if there is a way that I can connect the RSS feed of this blog to the other one. That'd be pretty sick. When I post a post here it shows up there. Well, thinking about it, that's a little much. I wouldn't even want to do that. I still like this name way better than the name of my other blog. I had to change it so the militant protesters would leave me alone. They really were going hard on me. When I changed it, they made a screenshot of some of the posts from the google cache! How weird is that? I wonder if they've found this one, too? I hope so. That'd be all of the publicity I need to get it back up and running like it used to be. I'm kidding.

Have a great day, everyone!

Boombox with iPod Cradle

2009-10-20T00:19:00.003-04:00

Oh wow! This is nice. I kind of want one, but I'm broke. An iPod boombox? That's merging two time periods. I wonder why hasn't anyone else thought of this? I swear my granny had that black one when I was a kid. It had the little EQ bar like that and all. I think I may cop this. It's definitely on my Christmas list. I could really be the 2010 "Radio Raheem." I got this from Like Cool, so I'll let them tell you all it does and the specifics of it.

It is a iPod Boombox. The Lasonic i931($120) is a portable music system in true retro ghetto blaster style, you can play this Boombox via an iPod dock. "The i931 features playback of MP3s via an iPod dock, usb port, or SD/MMC card slot. In addition, the i931 has AM/FM radio, remote, mic input, and bass and treble EQ controls. The system is capable of blasting out 15 watts per channel through separate woofers and tweeters. Headphone jack output Radio function (AM/ FM) Large text display on LCD Full function remote controls Separate bass and treble controls Many adjustable features in menu Accurately real time clock display Volume level indication (LED) Powerful Audio Output USB slot compatible Support USB flash drive and SD/MMC card to playback MP3 files iPod control available for playback, charging and interaction Mic Mix with /ECHO VOL Max power 15W x 2 Dimension (mm):650 x 166 x 365"

Purchasing details after the jump.

Buy at Amazon.

Table made out of 20,000 Legos

2009-10-19T17:22:00.004-04:00

This is a kitchen island made of 20,000 lego bricks. I'm one of those people that doesn't want to grow up, so this is perfect for me. I don't know how much I'd want to come home looking at it everyday; but the thought of it seems purely entertaining. Don't you agree?

Seriously, is it me or did the designers of this make little designs in it out of boredom? If you look at the patterns on the table it seems more than coincidence that there is a line green Y on it. That's hilarious. I would have tried to make my name out of the legos. Not all together, but I'd have an inconspicuous J, A, and the Y in there somewhere.

Here are a few more pictures.

Bave Circus

2009-10-19T00:24:00.002-04:00

I think this is a brilliant animation. It's actually beautiful, if you ask me. Like, I can't believe my computer monitor has shown such good quality. This looks like a blue-ray DVD. I about to invest in blue-ray after seeing this, no lie. The story is really cool, too. I mean, just pay attention to the detail that the animators did. The little boy's fingernails and all. It's just that dope. I was in awe while watching this. I definitely need some high definition stuff in my home. You don't know what you're missing until you get a small taste of it. So, please the music on my blog and watch this. The credits are after the jump.

(c) Copyright 2008 Supinfocom Valenciennes
Réalisé par :
Philippe Desfretier
Nicolas Dufresne
Sylvain Kauffmann
Martin Laugero

Musique originale de :
Thomas Miquel

Bedclothes by Vadim Cherniy

2009-10-17T23:32:00.005-04:00

I think this is a dope idea for the new, hip, young couple. It's a little more bold for my taste and what I'd like for my home, but I really think this is nice. I would praise my friends with their live-in relationships if they had these comforters! I'd think they were so clever. I mean, who wouldn't? My question is, does that determine what side of bed you sleep on? 'Cause, I sleep on the side of the bed that the woman is on. do they come in reverse? I mean, that's if it determines the order. I'd much rather have a woman on top of me while I sleep. But, wouldn't it look like I was wearing a dress? That's so complicated. Too much thinking.

Oh, and for those of an alternative lifestyle, Vadim Cherniy didn't forget about you! Check out your bedclothes after the jump.

(Source)

Available in IMAX 3D.

2009-10-17T22:22:00.008-04:00

This is actually kind of dope. I don't think it's for any of you, though. I mean, not any of the people I personally know. I'm not sure how I'd feel about them wearing this. I'm convinced that it would take a lot to pull something like this off, you know? This is one of those things that's more about the attitude. Do you have the confidence and the presence to rock it? I mean, if you do, then by all means purchase it here. It's $70 bucks. If you do get it, send me a picture and I'll post it on Kicks and Chicks as an outfit feature. How dope would that be? Actually, this blog doesn't get a lot of traffic so who knows? Maybe someone will send it. Click that little email icon and send me the photo if you get it. I'm so serious.

Now, I made this post to really talk about this dress and the model wearing it. For my personal taste, the glasses with the dress is a little much; but I can understand the necessity of it for modeling the dress. This is something that people should either get the concept or not. I'd think a chick was extremely dope if she had this on in public and I caught the concept of it. I mean, that's if she's a fly chick, you know? As I already said, some people don't have the presence to pull it off.

Now what really would be dope is if the red and blue were see through.

-grins.

Who wears a medium anyway?

2009-10-16T13:54:00.006-04:00

I like Undrcrwn a lot, but I've never owned any. It's because it doesn't come in my size. This is why I need to be some famous person so I can have things made for me. It's tough being 6'8", I swear. Things are extremely short, especially in my arms and mid section. Full jackets look like three-quarter length. It's completely ridiculous. As well, I'm not the skinniest nail in the pizza box, so shit is all small. Everything comes in like M/L/XL in all of the doper clothing lines. You tell me what the hell kind of man wears a medium? No, what the hell kind of male actually fits a medium. I'm not talking about wearing it to fit the trend. I'll wait.

This shirt is really nice. I like the double message in it. Especially since I'm not a fan of the word "swag" and it's variations. Charlamagne Tha God said it best: "Swagger is just a way of calling another man sexy." I think that's absolutely true. Wait, wouldn't this shirt be a way of telling another man he isn't sexy? I'm confused. Regardless, I still think Undrcrwn is dope. I would definitely get this shirt if it came in big guy size. It just doesn't because they make all clothes to fit The New Boyz and their followers. Now hold up, I ain't hatin'. If you wear skinny jeans do you thing! I can honestly say that it's just not for me. I like a little room in my pants. I'm not talking about the baggy that we used to wear in the 90s. I'm talking about a considerable amount of breathing room. Is that too much to ask? I don't think so.

Do you know why I like LRG? Because they don't forget about the occasional big guy. They have a whole line catered to the over sized male. Sometimes my jeans are even too long. But, this isn't about that. I really like this scarf. I know, I know, LRG is played out right now- but I've been wearing it since forever and I won't stop now since it's gotten all popular. The colors of this scarf aren't all of that, but I have a shirt that would match it perfectly. I'm fond of it. It had to grow on me at first. I saw it while I was at my friend Brian's house window-shopping on his computer. Yea, I'm a window-shopper. So what? I'm not rich yet. As soon as the money comes in I'm going to buy out the whole mall. No, I won't stunt on anyone, that's just not my style. I'll let all of you admire my clothes.

Stunting shouldn't be a habit.

2009-10-16T13:27:00.008-04:00

I can't stress it enough how much I can't stand people who "stunt." I feel like if you're fly if you wear it and let other people gawk over what you're wearing. You don't need to broadcast to the world what you have on and the prices of each item. That's just not fly.

I, personally, think it shows a low sense of class. The people who are easily impressed by materials are the people who have never had. Don't take that wrong either, because people can still appreciate the value of things even after you've grown used to it. What I'm saying is the people who have to brag are those who've never had. You don't have to show off what you have and how much you make. Let other people look and make some kind of assumption. When other people stop you and tell you how great your outfit looks, then you're fly. That's just my opinion.

Fashion is my second life if you haven't figured it out by now. It closely follows music, which is my first. I'm not into trends, though. I think I have a more classic look. I rarely look at my old pictures and say "Oh my God! What was I thinking when I had that on?" My clothes transcend time. Was that arrogant? I think so. Regardless, trends aren't for me. I'm definitely tired of dudes walking around in starter warm ups and high top fades. Do you, I guess; but there is a big difference in vintage and retro. Retro is the remake, vintage is authentic. Your look is definitely a remake.

Kicks and Chicks

2009-10-14T22:44:00.007-04:00

And I'm the newest member of the Kicks and Chicks team! Actually, I'm not. At least I don't think I am. Regardless, I'm a writer for Kicks and Chicks. I'm sure you've seen the calenders and pictures around before. It's really a great site. I mean, if you're into that kind of thing; which I doubt that you aren't. Who doesn't like beautiful women and fashion? That'll be just ludicrous to say that you aren't.

Well, pretty much I'm going to have the best blog ever over there. I hope that you're interested and follow us. Make sure you register so you can receive the great newsletters and engage in stimulating comments with myself and other readers. Lol, that sounded so corny. I'm just kidding; but don't let my joking around turn you away from registering! We should be relaunching either tonight or tomorrow. Either way, it'll be really soon! Don't miss out.

I hope you're just as excited as I am. Remember to check back to the website for some really great updates on entertainment, fashion, women, and anything else! If you have any questions about anything going on with Kicks and Chicks you can click the little email icon on the side of my blog or send me an email to jay@kicksandchicks.com! I'm also looking for photographers, designers, and models to spotlight on the blog. Seriously, don't be shy. I'm looking forward to hearing from some of you. Please refrain from the bullshit, though. I'll definitely block you.

I really hope I can keep up with both blogs. I'm going to keep updating this as much as possible. I need to gain my followers and stuff back up! I'll become a famous blogger or some stuff. That'd be dope, right? It'll probably mess up my music career. No one really listens to blog rappers. You see what happened to Charles Hamilton? Yea, that's not going to happen to me.

For now everything just seems so right.

2009-10-14T01:46:00.011-04:00

Are you a fan of J. Cole? I really think this song is dope. It's like some of the things that I've been though, give or take one or two of those mentioned in the song. I love the story that he tells. I think this song is one of the better songs on The Warm Up, although the whole mixtape is classic in my ears. Drake and J. Cole definitely held it down with their respective mixtapes this year. I just wish J. Cole had that same "larger than life" buzz that Drake has.

Just listen to the song playing on my blog and admire the shit dude says. It's really insane, man. Like, he has that old school unorthodox flow with crazy lyricism. I think he's paving his own lane simple because he can do the conscious rap and still be entertaining and light with it. I really enjoy this guy's music. Lights Please stuck out to me. It's no wonder why Hov signed him after hearing it. I would have done the same thing.

I included Dead Presidents II for your listening pleasure.

I could go for a new peacoat.

2009-10-13T21:28:00.012-04:00

It's hard to be a giant sometimes. This Armani Jeans Cotton Peacoat doesn't come in my size whatsoever. I wish it did, because it's really dope. I haven't worn a peacoat in so long. My mom would buy me one every year and it was my "church coat." Lol, those were the days. Regardless, I'd definitely like to get my hands on this in my size! That's impossible, though. Well, it's impossible right now because I don't have the money to get one special made to fit me. They make all of the good stuff for the little guys. Yep, I'm bitter.

I really love the fall because it's the beginning of layers! I honestly believe that the more I have on, the better I look. I kind of faced my demons with that. I won't get too deep into it on this blog, but just know I love layers. I could really see myself in this peacoat with a dope untied scarf under the collar. Yea, I wear scarves for show, not for warmth. I'd also have to go find my Chanel skull cap. I haven't seen that thing in years. I probably gave it away with the rest of my clothes. Actually, I'm sure I did. I gave away a lot of good stuff, man! Good, good stuff. There should be a bunch of pretty fly dudes walking around in my good gear, lol!

I actually forgot that Nordstrom has a Big & Tall section. This Marc New York 'Blake' Peacoat isn't as dope as the Armani one, though. I'd wear it. If I had $300 to spend on it, I probably would. I'm tired of the regular winter coats that I have. Like the one I'm wearing on the side of my blog. It's a really dope jacket, but it's the same style I've been wearing for the past few years. I'd like to step outside of box. I'm wondering if I could pull off a peacoat now. When I was younger, sure. I always thought I looked dope in my church coat! I used to look in the mirror and admire myself back then. I think I'm going brainwash my children into doing the same; although, both of their parents will be pretty fly so they'll just know how dope they are. Superficial, much? Don't judge me.

I'm going to save up my money. I'll get myself a peacoat for Christmas. "Check out this Peacoat, tell me he's broke." Right, 'Ye? That's what I'm talking about. I think I need to go listen to American Boy just to rap that line out loud with him. His verse is hilarious on that. "Tell me am I shallow because all my clothes designer." No, really... Am I?

Third time's the charm...

2009-10-13T19:44:00.001-04:00

Maybe three times the loser. I never know what to think! Lol, anyway, this is the first post on my new blog. I think I'll have more of a theme this time around. I'm really too random to stick with a theme, though. My thoughts are really sporadic, so why limit them into certain categories? I'll give it a try for as long as I can. We'll see how that works out.

I had a topic to talk about for my first blog here, but I'll save it for my second. I'm still tweaking the layout and stuff. If you followed me at the other place, you'd know that I change my layout like a bad bitch with fashion sense changes her clothes. That's probably an understatement. Regardless, I think I'll start the actual topic blogs when I finally get my layout where I want it to be. I haven't messed with blogspot in a really long time so it's starting to look foreign. I'll figure it out.

I can assure you that things will definitely be different this time around. I think it'll be a little less emotionally driven. I have another place where I share my emotional thoughts with myself. The last time people really took advantage of that. I put myself into a book, why not read it? That was my fault. I'm more prepared to handle all of that now. I didn't expect my previous blog to get the hundreds of visits it did a day or have the amount of followers it had at it's peak. I really hope to have that same success, but without the same bait. I just can't put myself out there like that again. Don't worry, the content won't lack!

The holidays are approaching so fast! What do you have planned? I'm really excited, kinda. I have a few plans, but this year has been such a bad year for planning. I'm not going to speak about it. I'll just let it happen; although I'm sure it'll go through this time. Let's just see what happens, good or bad I'll be thankful for the effort we put forth in our plans and happy that we're still alive and in good health. There is no reason to be upset about it. Maybe frustrated, but what else can you do? Why am I even thinking about it not happening? I'm the most positive cynic you'll ever meet.

The count down begins! I'm going to my first real concert next Wednesday. I'm fucking excited. I can hardly stop smiling when I think about it. I'm going to see my favorite rapper and a few of my other favorites! Jay-Z, J. Cole, Wale, and N.E.R.D.! I'll be going with one of my close friend's Carmen. She bought her ticket as soon as I asked her to go. Everyone else was broke, lol. So, it'll just be the two of us rapping, singing, and going crazy for 3/4 of the sets. I will be going off for all four, but she doesn't like Wale? What a cornball, right? Right.

Anyway, I'm not going to hold you up any longer. I will be back tonight. I have to watch my regular TV shows at 8. Let me make this phone call and call it a night for now. I'm kind of mad that I didn't go to the store before now! Lol, I'm about to watch Hell's Kitchen and be hungry as hell. Hey, that's my fault. I sacrificed for this blog. So, stop asking me to start blogging again! You.

Ttyl.