I haven't forgotten about you.

I'm up, just a few hours before I need to be. I hate that. Today is going to be a long ass shift and I'm wide awake. I should be sleep so I can be prepared for my day. However, I'm just up with no place to go. Rather, no one to speak to. So, why not make use of my alone time and just write it all down while I actually feel like talking? It's such an arduous task to keep up with blogging how I used to. This is something that I completely loved to do. It became a chore. I started writing for someone else other than me. I began to resent it. How is that even possible? I don't know.

Good news! My EP will be released this Sunday! Here's the artwork for you to check out. I've also released a song. It's probably playing as the main song on my blog. Who knows? I haven't decided whether I want to do that or not. Actually, why not? Who cares, right? I just don't want to seem tacky. Anyway, the EP came out great. I've gotten some pretty good reviews from everyone who has heard it thus far. Nothing really bad being said. On the flip-side, these are all friends who are probably trying to spare my feelings. We'll see how that goes on Sunday when the damned thing drops.

Today has been a really boring, thoughtful. I'm trying not to get too deep into what's in my head because it's not really worth it. Some shit is just best left unsaid. I do know that I'm starting to hate thinking about the same thing everyday. It's so repetitive and time consuming. Seriously, this is the first thought I have in the morning and almost always the last thought I have at night. You know this shit is fuckin' ridiculous. 

I'm guessing that's it for now. I thought that blogging would shut my mind off, but it hasn't. Maybe because I've neglected to open up how I really wanted to. It's a process. I'll tell you this: What I'm thinking about is nothing really bad. So, don't worry about if I'm like pseudo-suicidal or anything like that. I'm in a good place mentally. I just don't like the specific spot that my mind is stuck in. I'll have to find a way to get past where I'm at inside myself. The scariest part is that my mind and heart are in the same place. I'm just not too big of a fan of it myself. Does that make sense? It shouldn't, but it does to me.